Hey Blog Universe,
Well since I want to try to relate my personal experiences with my blog postings I want to address something that my friends and I discuss every-so-often: relationships. Whether straight/gay, black/white, or male/female relationships are always a delicate topic. I think people are so afraid of being lonely that they rush into relationships and force feelings that manufactured and instead of letting things happen organically. Adding the fact that the courting process is all types of messed up. Gone are the days of just walking through that park and talking, taking lunch breaks together, sending flowers for no reason, going to the movies together…you know actually DATING. Now you come over and sit on separate sides of the bed and 45 minutes later you are doing the horizontal polka, I got that from Steve Urkel!
It’s crazy how different people have different rationalizations and justifications for relationships. My female friends in my age bracket feel like at this time they should be finding the man they will spend the rest of their lives with because 30 is coming FAST! My male friends take it day by day (Ass is Ass), you know we as a male species have commitment issues anyway. My gay friends feel like they need to be boo’d up while they still look cute or before they get too old, you know 30 in Gay years is like 50 in regular years. Don’t have too many lesbian friends but the few that I do have can’t figure out, oh well.
I am one of the few people that I know that like being single. I guess it’s the only child in me but I don’t mind being alone. Lonely is something different but alone I can do. Many people cannot separate those two states of being and are scared of the solitude, but without the alone time one cannot figure out who they are. Self revelation is a daily occurrence and in order to be a complete unit with another individual you need to complete within yourself. Call me greedy but I enjoy options. I enjoy getting to know people and not necessarily on a physical level. Intelligence is probably THE SEXIEST characteristic of someone to me. Someone who is articulate, cultured, and knowledgeable just does something to me but I digress. I feel like sometimes people invest emotionally and physically to someone who shows a miniscule amount of interest or attraction and then of course they are doomed for Splits-Ville. I choose not to put myself through that world wind rollercoaster ride and just keep my options open. I have needs and they get scratched when they need to be. I do want companionship but I refuse to settle for temporary when I know that all that is me is legendary and monumental! Additionally I am 25 and God willing have the rest of my life to find that special someone who can put up with my mood swings and smart ass mouth. I think at this moment if someone were to come into my life I would be more willing to entertain the notion of DATING someone and getting to know someone rather than meeting someone and two weeks later we are dating and they have a space in my closet….which isn’t an option because I don’t have any space in there now…and it’s a walk in! I think that in my younger days I allowed those damn love songs to cloud my better judgment in what love is and how relationships are supposed to unfold! Now I know better and am even more protective of my feelings, emotions, and heart. But I do believe that now I am ready to take on that complex entity (LOVE) on with an open heart and mind! But I’ll keep you posted.
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